Guardian angels, depression and a….. Christmas story?

Just came back from walking li’ll Max we both are soaked, well a bit anyway! Max has a raincoat so it prevents him from getting all soaked and he hates the go out when it rains LOL. He does his business in record time and wants to go home asap and that’s fine with me!

After battling severe health problems, I’m now left with small depressions. Depression always rears its ugly head after I’ve been sick. Because being sick and to recover, takes a lot of energy from a person. What always pulls me through is my faith in my guardian angel. I don’t believe in god but I believe in fate and in Guardian angels.

I decorated the Christmas tree last week after feeling better, below you can see my tree. We celebrate two Christmas days 25 and 26 December. I know that in some countries they only celebrate one Christmas day. I will continue writing on one of my books (three at the moment) during Christmas. Well not on the 25e because hubby and I agreed that we don’t touch our laptops, the first Christmas day will be all about quality time.  If we wouldn’t have such an agreement I swear, I’m working even on the first day of Christmas.

I started to write a Christmas story yesterday, but was already stuck after only one page. And reading this one page made me realize that this story is gonna be about cops, not a Christmas story really. I think it’s because the mood I’m in right now, and I have to pull my head out of my ass soon because, tomorrow it’s Christmas Eve. Despite all the problems that i had in the last month, I’m blessed to still be healthy enough to live a relatively normal life. And I have my hubby whom I love very much and of course my li’ll doggie Max.

I’m already feeling better, while writing this down. Even though it’s Sunday I will do some much needed housework. Its keeps me busy and I will try and write some more, hell maybe I can start with a Christmas story. I want this story to be a romantic one with humor as well. Please fingers crossed for better times and inspiration!

                                                                                           

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Slowly back to normal….

It all started some weeks ago and I should have seen it coming, but as it was, I didn’t. De tiredness I felt over the last few weeks were a warning but again, I didn’t see it coming. So last week I finally got sick, at first I thought it was the flu. But, it turned out that my heart rate was out of control and the blood pressure too. I have this problem sometimes especially when there is too much tension. I always have my heart meds in reach and I never, ever leave the house without them!

I needed a lot of medication, and I slept a lot too I simply was exhausted. I’m doing much better this week *thank god for small favors*. I hope to continue with my novel on Sunday.

I went with friends to Ikea last week I love Ikea so, I already looked for some furniture for my new room. (I felt a bit better and I needed to get out of the house for a while.) Hopefully my room will be ready at the beginning of next year so I don’t need to work in the living room anymore.  Because it’s distracting en and I sometimes have trouble concentrating. But it’s ok for now because most of the time I’m alone with li’ll Max.

My friend was visiting yesterday; we don’t see each other much these days because both are so busy. But it was good to see him and we took a really long walk with Max because yesterday it was a beautiful day. I will take Max for a long walk to too because the weather is so beautiful. The sun is shining and it’s not that cold outside. 

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This week and yet another book!

I had a very busy week. I did a translation for a website and of course my SEO writing and my other job (the steady one). I went to Ikea this morning and bought two beautiful lamps and Swedish meatballs too they are delicious. I finally went to the dentist last Tuesday and thank god all was fine.  I made the beginnings for a new book because when I have an idea then I really want to write it down. This will be a sweet love story one man is 45 the other 48 and they both are sexy as hell. One has a beach house the other lives in town. I will write tomorrow on at least two of my books, well re-write one and continue with writing on the other book. Sam and Rory’s book needs a re-write and some serious editing (the publisher was so right). After I send them the book I already regretted it because deep down I knew the book wasn’t ready yet.  

I will take my time with the book and will re-write and edit the book with feeling. I should have done that from the beginning.  Anyway I wasn’t disappointed when I got the book back with the message that it needed editing and some re-writing because I knew that already. I work about six day a week and Sunday is my day off. So tomorrow I’ll write on my books and I will do some much needed reading. Hubby is away on Sunday so I have the hole house to myself (looking smug) LOLOL.

Tonight it’s watching TV (Percy Jackson) and cuddle up with hubby and li’ll Max on the couch.

Have a great weekend!

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Privet Drive no.4 and Mummifying Alan, books and more...

I had a very busy few weeks, and finally I have the time to write on my blog. I worked a lot these last weeks and I love my jobs I really do, but I’ve had basically no time to write on my second novel. But I will make time this coming Sunday.

I was home alone for 5 days because hubby was away for his work and I had the chance to watch the National Geographic Channel, they had a documentary about mummification. It was really interesting some researchers wanted to mummify a person the same way they did it some 3000 years ago. I could actually see how they mummified this person it was so weird. The show was called mummifying Alan.

Sunday is my day off, I only work on a Sunday when I really have to. This last Sunday I really had a lazy day, I continued reading and…..Finished my book. Cuddled with li’ll Max ate unhealthy food it was a nice day. And since I was alone I had a Harry Potter marathon (I have all the movies on DVD) I just love HP. And I was even more fun to watch because when I went to London in July to join the CRY WALK I also visited the WB studio’s just outside of London. That’s where they filmed HP. And I loved it when I saw Privet Drive no. 4 because I was also at the same Privet Drive in the WB studios LOL and I saw so many familiar things like the cupboard under the stairs hahahaha.

I pre-ordered a book and it was released two days ago and I totally forgot to download it. That shows how busy I really am *sigh* I will download it tomorrow and hope to get me some reading time soon! My copy writing goes well and now I hope to get me some translation jobs, I would really love it because it’s a new challenge and I love a good challenge!

You know, this year went by so fast. It soon will be Christmas time. In the grocery stores they all have the Christmas food on sale already. That’s it for now, I’m gonna enjoy my evening with hubby on the couch and li’ll Max beside me. 

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Saving the birds and selling a car!

On Monday I was home concentrating on my copy writing when suddenly there was a loud bang on the window? Max started barking like crazy (what else) LOL he likes to bark. I went to the window and looked down and there he was a tiny little bird down in front of the window. He flew against the window, and thank god he was still alive. So I thought I just leave the birdie be and he will recover. Which he did, it took about 45 minutes but he recovered and flew away. So I was of course very happy anyways I was happily writing my articles when there was yet again a bang on the window and there he was (again?) This happened three more times. So eventually I had to go to the store and buy those window stickers and I put them on all three windows. No birdie against the window since I put the stickers in place.

I sold my car this week, I didn’t need it anymore. I barely use him this year and since I now work mostly form home, hubby and I talked it through and we decided to sell it. I had the car for nine years and it never let me down ever! Hubby washed and cleaned the car and put it on the internet. And guess what it was sold within 24 hours, WOW. Now we have only the Smart car and he is a little cutie, really he is. We had so many phone calls since my car was put on the internet, it was madness.

Hubby is away for a few days; he left on Friday and will return on Tuesday evening. I don’t mind being on my own I still have li’ll Max and, I get some more writing done too. Oh and I bought a new adventure game but I can only play the damn thing on hubby’s laptop. It’s the first game I can’t get installed on my laptop how weird.

I’m done for the day with the housecleaning and working, now its reading time and I will continue with my novel. I don’t get much time during the week because I work pretty much all the time. Which is fine by the way, I love being a copy writer and besides that I have a steady job too. But I love being busy all the time, it’s satisfying. I just finish a book and gave it a bad review, I don’t like to give bad reviews but I have to stay honest and let people know what I thought of the book.  Whatever happens I always stay true to myself, it’s important.

This week was pretty exiting with selling my beloved car saving the little birds and being home alone for a few days. 

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I Missed my guy's

Ah finally, today I am continuing with the writing. I missed my guys. So now I have the time to write and this very moment I’m happily tapping away on my laptop in my pj’s. Yes I’m allowed to because it’s Sunday. Max is lying beside me on the couch and is fast asleep hubby is working behind his laptop too.

Right now I have 10 pages written on the second book in the Sam and Rory series.  It’s going well and I have so many ideas.

Right now it’s nice and sunny outside but, the weather will take a turn for the worse this afternoon so going outside for a family walk isn’t really an option. And because of that we will have an afternoon movie and snack time nicely at home. Because we need the quality time is it important to us.  

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Time to breathe.

So I wanted to sleep in today *yeah, yeah* I just couldn’t LOL I was up very early but that’s ok, I brushed li’ll Max and now I’m finished with the housecleaning.

These last few days I worked hard so I can have the weekend to myself. I have my regular hours of work and I’m a freelancer too and no work is no pay so I need to get my number of articles to feel good and that makes me able to relax at the weekend. And to keep up my number of articles makes it that I get my routine and I need routine in my work. When I reach my quote at the end of each week I can concentrate on other things like continue writing on both of my books.

I’m busy writing the second book of my series and my other WIP is about a lawyer and a very hot sexy bartender and much, much action in and out of the bedroom. I didn’t have time these last weeks to really write on my books, because I didn’t reach the number of article I wanted. And I worked on the weekends because of it.

And then on the Sundays I was so drained that I wasn’t able to write on my books. So that’s why I’m so happy because now I can start this afternoon with the writing. I still have some paperwork left but it can wait until Monday.

I have to pick out a book a want to listen to tonight, I have insomnia and when I listen to a book the time passes so much faster.

So today I feel like I can breathe again, and that feels damn good.

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Hard days!

I should be writing right now to earn some money, but i can’t concentrate on anything. I only wrote 2 articles so far and that’s not much. I went for work this morning and when I got back I planned on writing my 10 articles, so far no luck. So I’m writing on my blog instead.

My beloved doggie was sick this weekend some kind of stomach fly I guess. He is doing fine again thank god but he was pretty sick and was in pain too and I can’t bare it when the little one is in pain.

More trouble this weekend it seems that not only my credit card was hijacked but my mail account as well and my forum was deleted pointing to me as the culprit. So now I’m trying to figure out how to make it all right again, none of it is my fault actually but I feel guilty as hell. (Sounds familiar to anyone?)

My accounts are all secured again thank god, this is a nightmare. I’m so behind with the house cleaning and the garden too. I need to trim some bushes and soon because we last night we had our first night of light freezing temperatures. Now I’m switching between the garden and my writing in hopes to some work done today.  And I really need to continue with me 2 novels I guess it will take me to working in the evenings as well for now anyway until I’m all set again.

I love reading it’s my passion just like writing but the only chance I get to read anything right now is in my bed listening to my audio books.

I’m done ranting for now!!

The instinct of a dog

Today my dog kept me from getting soaked. I know my doggie’s every move and I can read him perfectly; his body language tells me a lot.

First I have to tell you that li’ll Max here hates water, he thinks water for drinking purposes is fine as for swimming or playing in the garden with the water hose, that’s a big big no go. So today I wanted to take Max for his walk before a left for work, we have a really nice park around the corner of my house about a 2 minute walk.

At the park entrance Max refused to walk any further he just stood still and looked up at me. I tried to coax him to go and walk through the park with me he didn’t budge. So we went home again and guess what……

I was just walking up the driveway when it started raining at first it was just a few drops, however after only one minute it was pouring. I guess what they say about animals smelling rain is so true. Max prevented us both from getting soaked, ah my pooch.

I feel a bit under the weather today; I went to work this morning en wrote four articles when I got home. I left for work again this afternoon and let me tell you, I’m glad to be home till Monday. I started writing on the second book in the series. I will also continue writing my articles, but I can stay home while working and that’s just awesome.  

And now, I’ll go and watch the Dog whisperer Cesar Millan, Castle and the Mentalist. 

Monday, Monday. And my next book!!!

Monday was a very busy and important day, the first thing I did was send my novel to the publisher, and now I wait with my fingers crossed. It will take some time before I get response because these things take time.

After that I left for work, when I got back home  the grateful task of cleaning the bathroom and the bedroom was waiting for me already, I hate cleaning, oh I clean alright don’t get me wrong but I don’t have to like it.  Then I went and wrote eight articles for work, writing is fun whether it is for work or writing on my novel (which is work too I guess.) it doesn’t matter I just lover to write. I was finished at 830 PM and then, my reward watching CSI New York and Bones I love both the series.

I still have to make an appointment with the dentist but it can wait for a while longer. I took my li’ll Max for his walk and made it back just in time before it started to rain and man, it poured it came down hard.

The summer is over and we are heading towards the fall I hope we get an Indian summer but it doesn’t look like it. L

I just started on my second book in the series, and I have so many good ideas for this second book. I can type fast but my ideas coming much faster. I’m on page 7 right now. 

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Finally I did It and WIP whoop whoop.....

I made so much progress on Saturday and Sunday, it was amazing.

On Saturday I took care of li’ll Max did some housecleaning, grocery shopping, I cooked dinner and yes I worked on some more articles. The day went by so fast LOL.  As usual I couldn’t sleep at night so I worked some more (wrote 2 articles) cuddled with Max and then I took my mp3 player and stayed in bed listening to my audiobook, about sexy werewolves yummy.

But today I really made progress; YES I’m finished with editing on my novel. I will send it to the publisher sometime this week I still have to add some personal information, I’m so excited!

And, I started building my homepage today I do that myself. I spend so much time behind my laptop this week it felt a bit unnatural. So I’m glad I actually have to leave the house on Monday morning. Have to leave for work and I have some grocery shopping to too, I mean we have to eat, right?

Oh and I really need to give my dentist a call, I put that on holt for as long as I could because I’m scared shitless when it comes to visiting that man. Don’t get me wrong I like dentist he is really nice and has a lot of patience with me. But I hate it when I finds something wrong with my teeth, it doesn’t happen a lot and for that I’m grateful. But I have this feeling that my luck is running out because it’s a long time since I had any kind of problems with my teeth.  

Tonight it’s only TV for moi. No writing, no internet, no nothing. Just relaxing in front of the TV. 

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When is it enough? And the day is just too short!

I need more time. How to get more out of my day? Good question, I guess I have to get more organized, ah I wish the day had 48 hours that would be great.

Finally some time to spend on my blog. I’ve been so busy these last few days; I’ve decided to finally start building my homepage. It’s long overdue. Also, I want to write some more articles because, I don’t know, I just can’t seem to stay away from working I guess.  I still have some editing on my novel waiting for me as well LOL.

So it looks like I’m gonna spend the day indoors again *sigh.* But I will take Max for his walk this afternoon, the problem is….Max doesn’t like to walk that far, if he isn’t home within 30 minutes he just sits down and refuses to walk any further.  Now you must know my pooch weights more than 12 kilo’s so carrying him isn’t really an option. I then simply have to wait until he catches his breath again and moves on, it mostly takes about like 5 minutes so that’s not too bad.

Today when I read the newspaper ( I’s my morning ritual) I read that sometime this week a girl invited just about everyone for her sweet sixteen birthday. As you all can imagine it was disaster last night in this little town, the girl herself had gone underground. These “party kids,” they destroyed homes and robbed the stores and it took the special forces to arrest 20 people before they all left, and at least 6 people were injured. The Special Forces stopped the whole bunch on the freaking freeway to stop them from going to the next bigger town and run amok there. I’m meaning the highway on foot?? Christ on crutches, this is just too much.

When I read articles like that I always wonder do parents really watch their children or do they simply not care and don’t take the time to properly educate them and teach them some values.

I have 5 siblings at home and my mom raised us herself and yes we did get into trouble a time or two like all children do, it’s natural for children to get into trouble. But when is it enough! And should parents be held responsible for their children’s actions and pay for the damage? Maybe if they had to they would starting to take care of their children and take the time to properly educate them! 

This is my Max!

I’ve been busy grooming Max, I do that myself ever since he returned from the doggie salon so stressed out, that he threw up the entire afternoon and wasn’t responsive for 3 days. That was heartbreaking and, they shaved him completely without even asking my permission even his beautiful face and tail and that was in February, so I had to buy him a winter coat asap so he wouldn’t get sick.

Today, for the first time ever he got into the shower voluntarily *yay for me and Max* You see, he is very afraid of the water especially when it’s poured over his head, then he freaks out. So today I followed Cesar Milan’s advice to the letter or word, you know what I mean! And it worked, I was very patient, calm and relaxed. Max got into the shower with in ten minutes, talk about success whoop whoop. He is gorgeous now after his shower and haircut. Here are two pictures of Max before and after.

While giving Max his haircut I listened to some nice jazz on the radio, so relaxing.

I don’t really have the time anymore to do the garden, but not to worry the weed will be there on Monday waiting for me LOL. And now I will relax with a book, I know that I was reading something, but what was I reading LOL I have to check my e-reader for that.

Have a nice evening.

Just a normal Saturday, what about the weekend!

So, what is a normal Saturday. What do we do on a Saturday. 

Are there still people who really, and mean really have the whole weekend all to themselves?  I only have the Sunday, that’s the only day I don’t have obligations. And I’m proud to say that I manage that pretty well.

For me, it’s just a regular day. The only difference is that I don’t leave the house to go to work. But I do work, in and around the house. Like today, I have it all planned out.

I’m gonna put li’ll Max in the shower, he is afraid of water so this always is testing my patience. I mean to coax him in to the shower takes a lot of time, I learned that from watching the Dog Whisperer on NGC always be patience and keep calm. That man is good, he is a miracle worker when it comes to dogs. And I learned a lot from him, by watching his show every week!

Next is the garden in front of the house, it need to remove the weeds and now is the perfect time because it’s not hot in fact it’s cold outside right now, for me that is the best time to do some gardening!

I also will continue editing my novel, I really want to send it to the publisher before the end of next week. So as for publishing *fingers crossed*

And after all is done is reward myself with a new adventure game I bought. I love adventure games you know the ones where you find hidden objects! It relaxes me and it’s been a while since I played a game on my laptop, didn’t have much time these last couple of months.

Have a nice weekend everyone!

Done for the week!

I had a busy week, at least to me it seems I had. But at last I finished my novel took me a few more days then I had anticipated  but, I have a good feeling I didn’t rush the end of the book.

I had to work yesterday and I got my 12 test assignments too. I managed to do both though or at least partly. On Thursdays I work most of the day, I did managed to do some of the  assignments in my time off between morning and afternoon.

Today I finished the rest of the assignments and it was so much fun and also educational, because if you have to write about different subjects  that means also a bit of research so you get the facts straight which, is very important. You can’t write down things that aren’t true.  These were test assignments so I hope I did well and that the company is satisfied with what I wrote.  

I also wanted to brush li’ll Max today but it’s dinnertime here in Germany and as a Dutch girl I’m used to cook at dinnertime. The Germans cook their meal at lunchtime, they still think it’s strange for me to cook dinner in the afternoon. I live so close to the border with Germany and still there is a lot difference  between the Dutch and the Germans.

No computer for me this evening (I think) gonna watch some TV cuddle with hubby and li’ll Max. Oh and I’m gonna take a long nice hot bath, didn’t do that in a long time.

I was planning on finishing the editing of my book so I can’t send it to the publisher, but I don’t think it will happen before Monday. I’m not even halfway through editing so it will take a few more days. But I hate rushing things so I’ll take my time to do it right and hopefully the publisher will like my work.  

Work, health scare and the final chapter!

Saturday:

I trimmed the hedge on Saturday but actually it was too hot for that kind of gardening, but I did it anyways. So if you saw a petite blonde trimming a hedge on Saturday morning it probably was me LOL.

We spend the Sunday with friends just relaxing sitting outside in the garden doing nothing. I wanted to write on my novel but hey sometimes we need a time out, right?

Monday:

Hubby got so sick he had to call in sick at work on doctor’s orders. He has a heart and lung condition due to a heart attack (witch got him 2 stents)  and losing 25% of his lungs so, he has to be extra careful, he got some pretty heavy meds and now he is resting, he should be fine in a few days. I however, am still on high alert because this happened before and he eventually ended up in the hospital.

It’s scary to wake up in the middle of the night because hubby can’t breathe and his skin is a pale grey  and he has chest pains as well. My mom always told me to keep it together when something life threatening happens, so you are able to make all the right decisions and save the panic for later on. And she was right, acting swiftly and being decisive, getting your priorities straight in seconds at the right moment can, save someone’s life. 

So that was what waited for me when I got home from work and grocery shopping.

this morning.

Now for the more fun stuff……

I’m starting on the final chapter (24) today and hope to finish the novel this afternoon, depends on how hubby is doing. Then, I will start editing. I edited about half of the novel already, when I thought I fell victim to the writer’s block *Is blushing now*

                                                                                                                          

So, I’m off to the garden now and will sit in the shade and start writing. I have many ideas for book two in the series. But I still can’t come up with a series name or book tittle. I want something unique, ah it will come to me eventually.   

Internet, necessity or addiction??

I wanted to be offline all day yesterday, haha how wrong I was. I just couldn’t stay away.  

I will reduce being on the internet however, I can’t stay offline all day even if I wanted to. I have to check my mail for work assignments.

I read the newspaper online, talk to my friends who are spread all over the world, that’s the beauty of the internet, it makes the world so much smaller.

I love to make friends all over the world, It’s interesting we are all so alike but at the same time so very different.

I book my plane tickets and also my holidays online, I buy my books online and so on!

The question remains, can we live without the internet? I would go crazy.....( I think)

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Quality or Quantity!

I just cooked a delicious meal, Chicken breast file with potatoes and spinach. It was very good if I say so myself LOL

It was during the cooking that I realized something. The latest development I wrote down? It somehow didn’t add up, I wanted Rory  to get a whole different story line. So I deleted more than 45 pages from my novel just now. It just didn’t feel good and I think that it was also the reason for my writers block. The ideas are starting to service slowly again.  

I hope to get more ideas, I need more ideas for the book to finish. I want to finish badly but I want quality even more. Sometimes I read a book and it starts out really good and then the author rushes towards the end like he/ she wants to finish first above all. I too have other projects already on my shelf but I love my characters to much to rush this to an end. Nope not gonna do it.

Writers block and Dallas!

For days now I try to get some writing done to no avail. If this is what they call a writer block I hope to get over it soon because I want to finish my novel. I had the same issue some time ago but that was because I had no idea about the ending of the book but as it turned out the book didn’t end with the ending of the character.

I still have another issue to finish and that will be the end of this first book in the series ( Do I make sense at all?)

Also I don’t get any reading done either, and on top of that…..I’m still looking for translation jobs which isn’t easy with so many others looking for the same.

Yesterday I saw the first two episodes of the new Dallas series, it was hilarious let me tell you JR depressed, Bobby dying? Of cancer and of course both the nephews at each other’s throat. I liked the appearance of Sue-Ellen Ewing though she was gorgeous as always. Continuing what their fathers started I guess. 

There was even more intrigues than in the old series. I was amazed it really was entertaining, I will watch it next week again.

So and now I’ll try to get some more words on paper.

Just a normal day?

  

After breakfast I went in the garden and cut a beautiful rose and then I visited her freshly digged grave, that way I had the chance to say a proper goodbye.  It’s always hard when someone you know *family, loved one or friend* dies but when they die so young, it’s all the more sad

Now it’s time to do some house work, I don’t want to but I have too, let’s say the house needs it after being away for ten days and being sick most of the week LOL. And I have some work on the internet waiting for me plus, I really want to start writing on my novel again I didn’t touched my book this last week.  But first I have to translate  an internet page for hubby, I promised so I will finish this task today (I hope).

Edit:

Walked Max, the weather is beautiful.

Just finished the translation. Gonna make dinner, rösti  plus schnitzel and baby carrots.  Getting hungry already. After dinner I have some time left for my novel. 

What is the proper way to say goodbye!!

Dying…Is part of life, there is no escaping it, it is what it is! Young, old, guilty or innocent or what race you are, death doesn’t discriminate if it’s your time then death comes to collect you. But no matter how you look at it or from what angle, we never understand why a person has to die.  When someone old dies it’s still very sad, but I do understand that their time is up and they have to move on. But is someone young dies it’s so much harder to understand. 

After being stuck with the flu most of the week and still reeling from the death of my neighbors dear, dear sister and of course the sad ending of Max’s little friend Trixi. I had to man up and go to the funeral, talk about a sad story, this was indeed very sad. Unfortunately, I didn’t get the chance to speak to the family after the funeral, to be honest the whole ceremony wasn’t very personal.  I my country it’s normal to give your condolences to the family so , me not being able to do so gave me a bad feeling and to top it all off, it was raining too.  

We don’t understand and can’t comprehend what happened after that , we get angry and then the world comes crashing down and we finally are able to grief and give it all place in our heart.

Some grief for months, some grief their whole life and then there are those who celebrate the life and all of the years they had the deceased in their midst.  And that is a beautiful way to remember, unfortunately not all of us are so fortunate to feel that way when a loved one dies.

But as they say life does go on. And in time we do all the daily things we did before again. Go to work in the morning, grocery shopping, gardening and eventually we will have fun again to.

Life really does go on!

Coming home!

I came home on Sunday from my ten days of camping, on Monday I was sick as a dog got the damn flu. So hubby helped out a lot, walking the dog and doing things around the house. I was in bed for two day with fever. And when I have a fever I can shower all I want it just doesn’t help. I still have two weeks left of my holiday (yippee) It’s been three days since I wrote anything and that bothers me most of being sick L.  As for the reading part ..I have much audio books thank god because reading with fever isn’t doable.

Sad news!

Furthermore my neighbors sister died this week at the  age of 47 What can I say. Fair, not fair? It is what it is life can be a bitch sometimes.  She was a wonderful woman with a powerful spirit RIP sweetie.

Tonight they all go to church to pray for her, I’m sick so I’m stuck at home.

Is it the dog or the human!

More bad news, hubby came back from walking with Max and Max’s doggie friend a very cute little pooch was bitten to death in the park were we always take our Max *shudder*  A small li’ll doggie bitten to death by two huge dogs, how awful is that!

And the man who owned the little doggie tried to help his doggie he got bitten so severely, he ended up in the hospital the man has a heart condition and is already very sick.

Why want people big, big dogs? Is it because they themselves are insecure, I would say 90% of those people are very insecure and by having a big mean dog they feel like a man. Losers  In my humble opinion. My hubby walks with our doggie and doesn’t feel less of a man.

Men who walk with small dogs are the real men, they have confidence and don’t feel less of a man when walking a small dog.

And it’s the human who is at fault when the dog becomes dangerous, it’s all about knowing how to raise your dog. And if you don’t know how to, then there are dog schools. They are able to help train your dog so the dog becomes balanced.

Balanced dogs are not dangerous they are social and won’t kill other dogs.

My book is coming along so well :) and My Holiday

It’s Sunday 18^th august and while I type this all down I wonder, how both of my neighbors all are holding up. And if R (I don’t use any names because of privacy reasons) is still alive. I remember when my granny was so sick and she knew her time would come soon, she was in constant pain and practically lived in bed for the last two years of her life.

She once said to me ”Dee….animals are so much better of them we humans” I asked her what she meant by that and she said “if an animal is terminal ill and it suffers because of it, then we have the option to put the animal down because we don’t want our beloved pets to suffer unnecessarily, however…. we humans have to suffer till the bitter end even though I think  it isn’t very humane at all

Monday 20^th  august

A perfect life??

Today we meet many of the Smart club, we are packed and ready to move to the campsite where we all will stay as a group. I’m looking forward to it and the temperature is great today it’s around 24 degrees Celsius and that’s really nice. My writing is going well in fact it’s going better then I imagined. I now know how the story continues and what’s more important I know how it ends……hubby is cooking for three day now and he loves it, but only when we are camping he doesn’t cook at home, so weird. He does the grocery shopping too, and that’s so totally fine with me. Max and I we stay at the campsite nicely in the shade and while Max is lying beside me I can continue writing  my book. Yeah sometimes life is perfect. But that’s the way it should be if you are on holiday don’t go looking for problems just live in the here and now and make the most of your time away from home…

Good Times and sad Times.

08-19-2012

Last week.

I didn’t have the time to update my blog last week so, I will write down the (for me) important things that happened in week 33

I’m writing all of this offline (not having internet at the camp side). As I’m writing this down I’m out camping with hubby and li’ll Max, it’s been two days since we arrived here at the camp site. And I hope that I can post some of these following blogs online in the days to come (will search for a hotspot somewhere)

Here it goes,

Week 33

To write down this week’s opening story is very hard but, it also helps me to coop with things, horrible life altering things.

Life isn’t always fair

Life isn’t fair, never was, and never will be!!

At the beginning of the week I got some bad and very sad news, hubby and I were walking Max and on our way back to the house, one of my neighbors called me back. She and her partner are living around the corner from our house, so I asked my hubby to take Max home and I went to see  her. Now, I do know that her sister-in-law is in the hospital and that she’s very sick (the big C) I just can’t write down that word.  

Anyways she was crying and told me that her S-I-L is dying. 

And although I wasn’t surprised because I knew that she had an outbreak of the big C. at four crucial different places in her body and the Chemo and Radiation didn’t have any  effect at all.

But still, to see my neighbor in so much distress and to actually hear out loud that someone you know and like so much, has only, maybe, two to three weeks left, is devastating. When I was called over to my neighbor, her partner was  already at the hospital again, she works forty hours a week and is spending ever single minute of her time at her sisters bedside.   So I held my neighbor in my arms and let her cry, we cried together. I sincerely hope her suffering will end soon, she is a great person and she doesn’t deserve any of this.

More of the week.

Week 33 was uneventful ‘routine’ if you will. The weather is very nice so far, I only have to work until Thursday and then…..I take my much needed three weeks’ vacation.

Hubby has his Smart Club event, starting Thursday 23^th august and at first I didn’t want to go with him to the event. But because the great weather and the fact that I need my heart meds again made me decide otherwise. So on Wednesday I told him I decided to come along after all, he just smiled and said “It took you long enough” he knew I would go with him even before I did myself.

We had reservations from Monday 20^th  till Sunday 26^th  of august and I was like, why don’t we leave sooner and spend the weekend already at the camp side we can take Max with us so what’s holding us back. So after some hasty preparations ‘I always do some extra cleaning when we’re away for some time.’ We left on Friday morning and we are having a wonderful time. Nice warm weather although, it’s noon and the temperature hit the 35 degrees Celsius already. So I made myself and Max comfortable in the shade sports drink at hand because I loos so much vitamins and minerals when it’s this hot.

Because of the heat we took li’ll Max for his walk very early in the morning fist at 7 am second at 830 am. We can’t take him out at noon or even in the afternoon because he can’t take the head, poor pooch.

Take care!

Just an ordinary day?

I wanted to continue writing today, but I’m still writing on the death scene of (him/her)  and no, I didn’t closedown my laptop yesterday just couldn’t. I re-wrote this particular scene  three times and I think I’m getting there so, I hope I’m able to finish this today. It really is so much harder than I thought it would be, I mean it’s just a character a fictional person, right? Wrong…… when I started this novel the character became friends they came to life, so yeah it’s difficult.

First I groomed Max this morning it really was necessary, it always takes me about an hour at the least.  And now I have to take him for his walk and it starting to rain, this is so messed up I think I will let him wear his raincoat LOLOL so that he doesn’t get soaked all the way.  

And now…. I will continue writing the death scene, and hopefully get it done today. It’s going really well I have over 33000 word count and I have so many ideas for the next scene already. ( Is bouncing now) 

Terrible but It was the right thing to do!

Oh man, I just let one of the characters in my book die. I feel bad about this, I really do. But I felt I had no other choice really! I read about it that, sometimes if authors decide to let a character die, they feel really bad about it. 

Well now I agree, it sucks. I think I put the laptop away for now and I will indulge myself with a nice glass of red wine. 

Good night to all of you. xx

Busy Monday

I don’t know about all of you, but Monday is always a very busy day for me.  I’ve been to work already and done the grocery shopping too, I hate grocery shopping with a passion LOL.  

I applied for some online writing/ data entry jobs. Took some time to find the  ones I would really like to do thought.

Now, all I have to do before I continue writing on my novel is to walk my li’ll doggie. And I’m trying to decide if I open both the WIP files or stick to just one book for now. Ah choices, choices.

As I was working in the garden yesterday, I got some ideas for both the stories  so, I hope to get some writing done today. That’s it for now. I’ll add some more later on. (I think).

A nice weekend.

I worked a lot in the garden yesterday, cleaned the pool it’s not a big pool just  (5621 liter). But for hubby and me it’s big enough to cool down.  I got stuck with my writing, don’t know why. Maybe because I was behind my laptop every available hour of this last week.  Anyways I decided not to write anything this weekend, I do take notes however because the ideas are slowly filling my head  again.

So being creative in my garden does seems to help. I’m creating new flowerbeds yep I am. And I came up with some new ideas for the Alex and Toni story as well *Yay me*  

I have 2300 word count so far on the Alex and Toni story. And a bit over 31000 word count on the Sam and Rory story whoohoo. I’m chatting with a good friend of mine while typing this LOL . Talking about our dogs and garden digging LOLOL. So he is off to the beach now and I’ll work some more in the garden. Does my li’ll doggie help me? Yeah sure, he is lying in the shadows occasionally chewing on some ice cubes. The lucky bastard.

More to do!

I was so tired when I got up this morning, probably because I had a bad night’s sleep, I wrote all evening and when I finally went to bed I had still so many ideas, so yeah that will keep me awake at night. I listened to an audio book for a few hours and must have fallen asleep sometime near the end of the story, because I don’t remember for it to end and yet it was finished the next time I woke and checked.

Anyways, after two cups of coffee, I slowly woke up read the newspaper, which I really shouldn’t because of all the bad, bad news. But a woman has to keep up with what’s happening in the world, right? I had my breakfast took a shower and put on my clothes and continued with both the story’s .

The short story (Main characters Alex who is a lawyer and Toni who is a bartender)  I was planning on writing, will probable turn out to be a novella LOL I just have so much ideas, I first planned it to be just a meet and fuck/ BDSM story, but it turns out to be so much more already. So I’ll continue with the writing and see how it goes because a story is finished when I feel it’s complete and not anytime sooner.

My other book (Main characters Sam and Rory) The story is set in the Rocky Mountains, is progressing slowly, but hey I’m still writing so that’s good, right?

Anyways, I already did some housecleaning (Not nearly enough, but I’m on the roll with my writing *shrug*) I also went to the grocery store. And…. I even decided what to cook for dinner, I will make Goulash with rice, hmm getting hungry already and I just finished my lunch. That’s it for now, gonna do some more writing.  

A very busy week!

I had a very stressful week, I started on another book this will be a short story with approximately 3500 word count, I’m making good progress. It’s just that when I have an idea I have to put it on paper  LOL. But it also means that I didn’t continue  writing on my novel *sigh* I wanted to, I really did, but at the moment I’m a bit stuck on the story. And I want to do this the right way, so I’m taking my time. Ah… I’m too much behind my laptop especially this last week.

Then I have a job for several hours a week, I work on Mondays and Thursdays. Thursday is always a bitch, because I don’t have time for anything else really. And I’m walking around most of the day with all these great ideas and I can’t write them down. It’s a bit frustrating, yes it really is :) So I came home in the late afternoon today and was so hungry and tired, I cuddled with my doggie and kissed my hubby, he started dinner and I got behind my laptop and started writing. 

It’s late evening now and I’m still writing on the short story, hubby is behind his laptop and our doggie is on the chair beside me. I had so little time for him today, so tomorrow he and I will go for a really long walk. Then I really have to start on the cleaning thingy you know, living room and so on ( Not laughing right now) I will listen to an audio book I have on my Mp3 player that way I get some reading done.

I have tons of books still to read, and I will create reading time I will clear my schedule so I will have at least  one and a half hour reading time per day. Ohhhh mannnnnn that sounds so gooooood. Maybe I’m too busy on to many projects right now I don’t know, but I do know that I love being busy and I love the writing I see it as creating something beautiful when writing a book. That's it for now! Night all.

The miracle of becoming a parent, a prerogative?

First of all, you DON’T CHOOSE  to be gay or straight, it’s simply the way you were born.

I’m starting this blog because a while ago I read the cry for help from a young gay student. His story is amazing because he doesn’t give up and fights his way through education, he is left with nothing but the clothes he wears  a pair of flip-flops his laptop  some books a blanket and his cat. Hhis parents kept his other belongings because they though he didn’t deserved them, he hadn’t paid for it they (parents) had paid for all of it.  (Yeah, pathetic I know)

They ( His parents)  took his savings from his bank account before he could get  it himself, they said it was payment for all the time he had lived in their house. Again, it is normal for a parent to provide for their child. So basically they did steel from their own son, How low can you go!

It seems that  a ’friend’ from high school got wind of him being gay and next, everyone knew including his parents and they eventually kicked him out because of it.  And he had to leave high school two months before graduation, because it wasn’t safe for him anymore.

I think it’s normal for a parent to provide for the child. His parents didn’t feel that way. Imagine you are a young adult and come home one day after school and mom and dad tell you, you have until midnight to collect your things and get out of their house……. They take away your savings, your clothes and other things just because they feel it doesn’t belong to you because you are gay!

It was author Wade Kelly who  took his story to heart and started the fundraising for this young man. Wade Kelly has written a wonderful  novel  … When Love Is Not Enough  …  It’s about how so many young gays are struggling, and long for acceptance from their parents and the community, it’s wonderful written and I cried more than once reading this book. Because I know what Wade wrote, these things happen in real life, sad but so true.  The suicide rate is very high among these youngsters and that saddens and at the same time fills me with anger. 

It amazes me, every time I read that parents kick out their young children ( Some are even as young as fourteen and they mostly end up on the streets) or if they are really lucky they have relatives who take them in. Makes me shudder with disgust. Becoming a parent should be a blessing even if the child doesn’t turn out the way you have wanted him to. They are children and didn’t ask to be born, children are most precious and are a blessing not a burden or a shame.

This young student, isn’t a trouble maker but he works hard and studies even harder to make his life better.

But read this oh so sad story ‘of this very strong young man’ for yourself and help with the funding.

http://www.gofundme.com/helpgaystudent

Wade Kelly’s Homepage:

http://wadekelly.weebly.com/index.html

Introduction.

The reason for starting this site is, that there is so much to tell! I want to use this site to write about what keeps me busy and share my thoughts with as much people as possible. There will be sad stories and happy ones too, it’s not all bad what happens in the world, right.